Sep
20
2014

Stale Smoke In A Running Circle 10
it’s both and it’s where two sexualities collide and not even being sure of myself, makes me anxious as I look at him as he comes back, quickly shooting a glance at Alex, who I seem to be avoiding and this seems to be a morning of confessions and I look around at all the cis men, not feeling any different, I still hold the same feelings, the ease and the attraction is all there.

I feel like I am dunking my head underwater, maybe this isn’t how coming out should feel, as all strings seem to be dettached and long lost feelings emerge, my head shaking and jerking to breath from the water
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Stale Smoke In A Running Circle 10

it’s both and it’s where two sexualities collide and not even being sure of myself, makes me anxious as I look at him as he comes back, quickly shooting a glance at Alex, who I seem to be avoiding and this seems to be a morning of confessions and I look around at all the cis men, not feeling any different, I still hold the same feelings, the ease and the attraction is all there.


I feel like I am dunking my head underwater, maybe this isn’t how coming out should feel, as all strings seem to be dettached and long lost feelings emerge, my head shaking and jerking to breath from the water

READ MORE ALISON MOSSHART/ALEX TURNER FANFICTION AT GRASPTHESANITY

Sep
19
2014

Stale Smoke In A Running Circle 10
The question is more than plain?

Where do I begin?

Where do I start? Where does the dysphoria start and where does my desire to be with Jamie end? 

It’s not even about myself, it’s a mixture of indeed myself and where do I fit in with Jamie.  It’s about the anxiety of oneself and the other, since by the end of the day when you want to be in a relationship-

it’s both and it’s where two sexualities collide and not even being sure of myself, makes me anxious as I look at him as he comes back, quickly shooting a glance at Alex, who I seem to be avoiding and this seems to be a morning of confessions and I look around at all the cis men, not feeling any different, I still hold the same feelings, the ease and the attraction is all there.
 
READ MORE ALISON MOSSHART/ALEX TURNER FANFICTION AT GRASPTHESANITY

Stale Smoke In A Running Circle 10

The question is more than plain?


Where do I begin?


Where do I start? Where does the dysphoria start and where does my desire to be with Jamie end? 


It’s not even about myself, it’s a mixture of indeed myself and where do I fit in with Jamie.  It’s about the anxiety of oneself and the other, since by the end of the day when you want to be in a relationship-


it’s both and it’s where two sexualities collide and not even being sure of myself, makes me anxious as I look at him as he comes back, quickly shooting a glance at Alex, who I seem to be avoiding and this seems to be a morning of confessions and I look around at all the cis men, not feeling any different, I still hold the same feelings, the ease and the attraction is all there.

 

READ MORE ALISON MOSSHART/ALEX TURNER FANFICTION AT GRASPTHESANITY

Sep
19
2014

Stale Smoke In A Running Circle 10
The question is more than plain?

Where do I begin?

Where do I start? Where does the dysphoria start and where does my desire to be with Jamie end? 

It’s not even about myself, it’s a mixture of indeed myself and where do I fit in with Jamie.  It’s about the anxiety of oneself and the other, since by the end of the day when you want to be in a relationship-

it’s both and it’s where two sexualities collide and not even being sure of myself, makes me anxious as I look at him as he comes back, quickly shooting a glance at Alex, who I seem to be avoiding and this seems to be a morning of confessions and I look around at all the cis men, not feeling any different, I still hold the same feelings, the ease and the attraction is all there.
READ MORE ALISON MOSSHART/ALEX TURNER FANFICTION AT GRASPTHESANITY

Stale Smoke In A Running Circle 10

The question is more than plain?


Where do I begin?


Where do I start? Where does the dysphoria start and where does my desire to be with Jamie end? 


It’s not even about myself, it’s a mixture of indeed myself and where do I fit in with Jamie.  It’s about the anxiety of oneself and the other, since by the end of the day when you want to be in a relationship-


it’s both and it’s where two sexualities collide and not even being sure of myself, makes me anxious as I look at him as he comes back, quickly shooting a glance at Alex, who I seem to be avoiding and this seems to be a morning of confessions and I look around at all the cis men, not feeling any different, I still hold the same feelings, the ease and the attraction is all there.

READ MORE ALISON MOSSHART/ALEX TURNER FANFICTION AT GRASPTHESANITY

Sep
18
2014

PDD or Hypoxyphilia 2
Brian had smiled, watching me still in yesterday’s platforms which I had noticed had been new. 
The continuation of coming back pounces on you, like a sadistic snake which will never bite you, it trails after you, just because you think it does. 
Class had already started, but his eyes kept gleaming at me, hair chopped right where his neck would end and he seemed to grin at me, his features reminding me of some fox, which believes itself to be brave, yet just has something harming. 
“Have you ever been attracted to other men?” Brian raises his eyes, blowing smoke in my face, but the wind gets it the other way and I just smirk, as he just keeps his look, a light chuckle as he drags the cigarette in again. 
READ MORE JAMIE HINCE/BRIAN MOLKO FANFICTION AT GRASPTHESANITY

PDD or Hypoxyphilia 2

Brian had smiled, watching me still in yesterday’s platforms which I had noticed had been new. 
The continuation of coming back pounces on you, like a sadistic snake which will never bite you, it trails after you, just because you think it does. 
Class had already started, but his eyes kept gleaming at me, hair chopped right where his neck would end and he seemed to grin at me, his features reminding me of some fox, which believes itself to be brave, yet just has something harming. 
“Have you ever been attracted to other men?” Brian raises his eyes, blowing smoke in my face, but the wind gets it the other way and I just smirk, as he just keeps his look, a light chuckle as he drags the cigarette in again. 

READ MORE JAMIE HINCE/BRIAN MOLKO FANFICTION AT GRASPTHESANITY

Sep
18
2014

Disaster 3
I don’t move and she tries to ignore me shatter as I can’t help but watch her locks as she starts dressing up like the doll she is, how she quickly puts gloss on her lips as I just watch her in awe and I glance down, I made her orgasm twice and she’s still sticky all over my body and the thought arouses me that I could even touch myself in her bed and I’m still fucking aroused. She stops to look at me. And she leans down to kiss me, I hold the kiss and just as I lift my arm to pull her lower she breaks it.

“We can have sex again tonight. You wanna stay over?” I don’t even nod, as she quickly packs her things and I’m the one to fill in our biology homework, like the shy girl who wants attention just because she knows how the membrane works and the difference between a human and a plant cell. 
 
READ MORE LANA DEL REY/MARINA DIAMANDIS FANFICTION AT GRASPTHESANITY

Disaster 3

I don’t move and she tries to ignore me shatter as I can’t help but watch her locks as she starts dressing up like the doll she is, how she quickly puts gloss on her lips as I just watch her in awe and I glance down, I made her orgasm twice and she’s still sticky all over my body and the thought arouses me that I could even touch myself in her bed and I’m still fucking aroused. She stops to look at me. And she leans down to kiss me, I hold the kiss and just as I lift my arm to pull her lower she breaks it.


“We can have sex again tonight. You wanna stay over?” I don’t even nod, as she quickly packs her things and I’m the one to fill in our biology homework, like the shy girl who wants attention just because she knows how the membrane works and the difference between a human and a plant cell. 

 

READ MORE LANA DEL REY/MARINA DIAMANDIS FANFICTION AT GRASPTHESANITY

Sep
18
2014

Snap Out Of It 2
Jamie takes the couch every night and I wonder how come we both wake up and there is nothing awkward about both of us in pajamas and eventually he drags Archie in and soon enough even his doggy things are all here and he just watches me amused and the fact that Jamie talks to him in his sleep creeps me out a bit, so I just watch him from afar, wondering what the fuck would a forty five year old talk with an Italian born dog?

“The tempting thing about suicide is that if there’s nothing after death then all of this will be forgotten.” I tell that to Archie on the third night as Jamie headed out for groceries and we agreed to head out tomorrow and I wonder how alienated I shall feel.

It seems to slowly start wearing off with Jamie nearly yanking me out of bed every night and soon enough he even forces me outside and I smile for the first time in a while, clothing a bit too plain because I couldn’t tell myself that I would look good in a button up and Jamie drops his suits as well, which eases me a bit and he looks far better than I do and he’s the one who does my quiff as I sit on the edge of the bathtub and I feel as if I’m just getting dragged out from the dead and I take my while before we head outside. 
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Snap Out Of It 2

Jamie takes the couch every night and I wonder how come we both wake up and there is nothing awkward about both of us in pajamas and eventually he drags Archie in and soon enough even his doggy things are all here and he just watches me amused and the fact that Jamie talks to him in his sleep creeps me out a bit, so I just watch him from afar, wondering what the fuck would a forty five year old talk with an Italian born dog?

“The tempting thing about suicide is that if there’s nothing after death then all of this will be forgotten.” I tell that to Archie on the third night as Jamie headed out for groceries and we agreed to head out tomorrow and I wonder how alienated I shall feel.

It seems to slowly start wearing off with Jamie nearly yanking me out of bed every night and soon enough he even forces me outside and I smile for the first time in a while, clothing a bit too plain because I couldn’t tell myself that I would look good in a button up and Jamie drops his suits as well, which eases me a bit and he looks far better than I do and he’s the one who does my quiff as I sit on the edge of the bathtub and I feel as if I’m just getting dragged out from the dead and I take my while before we head outside. 

READ MORE ALEX TURNER/JAMIE HINCE/MILES KANE FANFICTION AT GRASPTHESANITY

Sep
18
2014

Blue/Jacket

I don’t know why he’s here.

And he looks back at me, just as confused at me and holding a painting in his hand and in that leather jacket with One For The Road written on it with something else written below it and I can see how shaved the back of his head is, how his hair is styled in a quiff and how he looks at me, a look which every year I change my opinion on.

At first, it’s normal, I’m attracted to a man,

but it changes at least in the eyes of many people when I put on the binder and people comment on how flat I get and they ask me, why do I look like a man

and those who have some sense in their heads, they just say ‘oh’ and their mouth stays like that

and I can still recall him,

maybe this year it’s different

READ MORE MILES KANE/ALEX TURNER FANFICTION: http://graspthesanity.blogspot.se/2014/03/bluejacket.html?m=1

Blue/Jacket

I don’t know why he’s here.

And he looks back at me, just as confused at me and holding a painting in his hand and in that leather jacket with One For The Road written on it with something else written below it and I can see how shaved the back of his head is, how his hair is styled in a quiff and how he looks at me, a look which every year I change my opinion on.

At first, it’s normal, I’m attracted to a man,

but it changes at least in the eyes of many people when I put on the binder and people comment on how flat I get and they ask me, why do I look like a man

and those who have some sense in their heads, they just say ‘oh’ and their mouth stays like that

and I can still recall him,

maybe this year it’s different

READ MORE MILES KANE/ALEX TURNER FANFICTION: http://graspthesanity.blogspot.se/2014/03/bluejacket.html?m=1

Sep
18
2014

Stale Smoke In A Running Circle

I just don’t do anything instead I wonder if he will continue bragging but he doesn’t.

“Are you even old enough to go in there?” I ask, chewing on my cigarette before taking a long drag, wondering what the fuck would Jamie be doing, awake or not.

“No, but they just don’t bother IDing you.” Seemed like a lie to me, but then there should be some places, I came here old enough to drink. 

READ MORE ALISON MOSSHART/ALEX TURNER FANFICTION: http://graspthesanity.blogspot.se/2012/04/stale-smoke-in-running-circle.html

Stale Smoke In A Running Circle

I just don’t do anything instead I wonder if he will continue bragging but he doesn’t.

“Are you even old enough to go in there?” I ask, chewing on my cigarette before taking a long drag, wondering what the fuck would Jamie be doing, awake or not.

“No, but they just don’t bother IDing you.” Seemed like a lie to me, but then there should be some places, I came here old enough to drink.

READ MORE ALISON MOSSHART/ALEX TURNER FANFICTION: http://graspthesanity.blogspot.se/2012/04/stale-smoke-in-running-circle.html

Sep
18
2014

Humming Television Set

It’s back to two in the room with a record in the middle and a few strums hanging in the air as if they would be the ones who cut the throats and this decision. 

It’s too tense and the tension to grab the CD and just hurl it and break my glasses in two and just show them in front of Daniel as I strums a bit more, hitting on one note all the time and for a second what if we’ll just get one note the two of us or should you find someone else to complete.

READ MORE PAUL BANKS/DANIEL KESSLER FANFICTION: http://graspthesanity.blogspot.se/2012/03/humming-television-set.html

Humming Television Set

It’s back to two in the room with a record in the middle and a few strums hanging in the air as if they would be the ones who cut the throats and this decision.

It’s too tense and the tension to grab the CD and just hurl it and break my glasses in two and just show them in front of Daniel as I strums a bit more, hitting on one note all the time and for a second what if we’ll just get one note the two of us or should you find someone else to complete.

READ MORE PAUL BANKS/DANIEL KESSLER FANFICTION: http://graspthesanity.blogspot.se/2012/03/humming-television-set.html

Sep
17
2014

Disaster 3

“I…” Eyes gleaming, post-sex and pre-boyfriend. “Got a date with Matthew and guess who won’t be horny tonight.” 

I don’t move and she tries to ignore me shatter as I can’t help but watch her locks as she starts dressing up like the doll she is, how she quickly puts gloss on her lips as I just watch her in awe and I glance down, I made her orgasm twice and she’s still sticky all over my body and the thought arouses me that I could even touch myself in her bed and I’m still fucking aroused. She stops to look at me. And she leans down to kiss me, I hold the kiss and just as I lift my arm to pull her lower she breaks it.

READ MORE LANA DEL REY/MARINA DIAMANDIS FANFICTION: http://graspthesanity.blogspot.se/2014/09/disaster-3.html

Disaster 3

“I…” Eyes gleaming, post-sex and pre-boyfriend. “Got a date with Matthew and guess who won’t be horny tonight.”

I don’t move and she tries to ignore me shatter as I can’t help but watch her locks as she starts dressing up like the doll she is, how she quickly puts gloss on her lips as I just watch her in awe and I glance down, I made her orgasm twice and she’s still sticky all over my body and the thought arouses me that I could even touch myself in her bed and I’m still fucking aroused. She stops to look at me. And she leans down to kiss me, I hold the kiss and just as I lift my arm to pull her lower she breaks it.

READ MORE LANA DEL REY/MARINA DIAMANDIS FANFICTION: http://graspthesanity.blogspot.se/2014/09/disaster-3.html

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